Friday, November 07, 2008

still on the line

On our trip to Texas, we stopped for coffee somewhere south of Waco and, along with our beverages, we picked up James Taylor’s new CD, Covers, to give us a break from the radio. As I said earlier this week, my life is a movie in search of a soundtrack. A couple of cuts in, I could feel something change inside me as he began to sing, “I am a lineman for the county.” I have loved “Wichita Lineman” since I first heard Glen Campbell sing it on a record my parents had, to when I learned Jimmy Webb wrote it, to when I heard Jimmy Webb sing it, and on down until JT’s soft, well-weathered voice carried the words and music as we drove up that Texas highway last week.

The BBC said it was No. 87 of the Top 100 Songs and Rolling Stone put it at No. 187 of it’s Top 500 Songs of All Time, right after "Free Bird," which makes for an interesting juxtaposition. Here are the lyrics:

I am a lineman for the county.
and I drive the main road
searching in the sun for another overload

I hear you singing in the wire
I can hear you thru the whine
and the Wichita lineman is still on the line

I know I need a small vacation
but it don't look like rain
and if it snows that stretch down south
won't ever stand the strain

and I need you more than want you
and I want you for all time
and the Wichita lineman is still on the line
From my earliest memories, the song is tied to “Gentle on my Mind,” which was on the same record. Both of them are unusual love songs, I suppose, and I sang along heartily even though I had no idea what he was singing about, other than I liked the word pictures of
moving down the back roads by the rivers of my memory
and for hours your just gentle on my mind
As I have heard “Wichita Lineman” over the years, I’ve come to see it as a tenacious love song. Here’s a guy who is dutifully doing what he thinks needs to be done and, even in the midst of his hard work, love comes singing to find him. The lines that kill me are
and I need you more than want you
and I want you for all time
and the Wichita Lineman is still on the line
Ginger and I talked again today about how our work schedules – OK, mostly mine, since I work five nights a week, and this week, six – keep us from eating dinner together or being able to get out and do much. Maybe the song hits because I feel like the Bull City Line Cook who is still on a line of his own. Most any afternoon, one of us calls the other and says something like, “I just missed you and wanted to say, ‘Hi’.” Even though the phones have nothing to do with lines anymore, I can still hear her heart sing. However the equation of need and want plays out, what I understand almost twenty years on is the tenacity of love is not about hanging on, or hanging in there, but about diligently boring into one another’s beings and determinedly tightening the bonds between us, regardless of schedules and duties and whatever else life may hold. Whether all has been said and done, or there is still much to do and say, we are together.

And we have music to play as we go.


Peace,
Milton

3 comments:

beth said...

Excellent. You're feeding my Jimmy Webb thing...

The musicians are EXQUISITE.

I posted this, too; thanks!

M Holman said...

Milton, have enjoyed reading your blogs regarding faith, family and friends.... thanks for telling me about it!

While JT has done many covers over the years ("Up on the Roof" is probably my fave) the JT "Covers" is a quality work (interesting choice with "Summertime Blues" and I really like his cover of Buddy Holly's "Not Fade Away"). I have never been very fond of "Wichita Lineman" although that is the song most critics mention in their review of "Covers". Today's blog has made me see it in a different light. But when I think of "need" vs "want" I think of the Assosiations "Cherish" and these words: "Oh I could say I need you, but then you'd realize
that I want you, just like a thousand other guys
who'd say they loved you, with all the rest of their lies,
when all they wanted was to touch your face, your hands
and gaze into your eyes".

I have always loved the line you cited from "Gentle on my Mind" but generally screw it up when I try to sing along.... but my favorite is the line about keeping my "sleeping bag rolled up and stashed behind your couch" because it reminds me of doing exactly that at your old apartment following my graduation --- I was going to Waco every weekend trying to convince Sherrie to marry me (glad I was persistent and glad she said yes, and we celebrated our 30th this past May). I didn't really keep it behind the couch, but in the closet! It's great traveling "down the back roads by the rivers of my memory" because some thoughts and feeling are forever "gentle on my mind".

helga said...

Well that above friend is totally kickass. I was just going to say that Ginger married you because you worship her like a goddess, and that's why I had to have Holmage,too.